broke the fast... 72 hours though...

Ok, I had to break my fast! Shit happens, right?`But im in a good mood today, Im gonna finish this thing this time!

My fast officially end at 10.00 pm June 27th. Then I will have my orange!

Uh, I need feedback!

Lia

The Master Cleanse 14-06-07

Hey all! I have been off internet for so long. Living in the mountains of Costa Rica, in a house of hippies... I just had to write now! I just got back to sweden, and when I left for CR I was 167 lbs (whooo) and I just weighed myself and Im at this moment 153 lbs! just a couple of months drinking beer and smoking pot got me to feel a little better about myself and I am starting the Master Cleanse tomorrow. 10 days of only lemon juice, cayennepepper and maple syrup. Im gonna loose another 20 pounds and get back on track!

I hope you guys are doing well and forgive me for not being here for a while!

Love Lisha

Currently Listening August and Everything After By Counting Crows Rain King see related

02-01-2007

Yeah, I'm still alive. if anyone wonders?

I feel like im a little lost in myself right now, HE is here, from America, and the other HE is right here in Sweden with me (yeah, im home for christmas).

I dunno what I want, anything else than making myself loose weight.

My ulitmate goal weight is 60 kilos. Im right now around 74-75. This is really what I want to acheive. I will give it time though, and I am expecting that when I come back from Spain (yes, ill go back saturday and then return to sweden middle february), I will be under my low-point at 67. Thats wat I expect.

For my help I will read a book recommended by my dear friend, called The Power Of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

And I will also start up my return to Málaga with a 10 day cabbage-soup, raw-vegan-food diet. Then I will continue eating only healthy stuff and in all this time I will not eat white bread, white pasta, white rice or sugar.

I think this sounds good, cause I really wanna get out of my mind and stop thinking about food 24-7, its eating me from within, it has brought me to where I am today!

I am an emotional eater, I have been anorexic, I have been bulimic, I will not go back, I will start living for what I wanna live for; Music & Fashion, and Im gonna move back to sweden and pursue these dreams!

Anyone who wants to join me on this journey? I would be happy to have you!!!

I wish you all a happ new 2007 and I really hope you all reach your goals and stay beautiful! Cause I know you all are!!!

I have respect for you all!

Stay strong!

Love Lia

Currently Listening Les Retrouvailles By Yann Tiersen see related

7-12-2006 day 3

I just have no clue about myself anymore... I just finished a pringle-bottle and I feel like shit. I had come so far this spring, I was actually happy about myself a little... Now Im back at scratch 1 again. It sucks!!!

Tomorrow its all gonna be about me! I wanna see the world through a happy, cleansed mind! I just hate the way I feel right now and I have no clue how to fix it! I know that when I´m happy, Im doing good, with the food & with the people, and right now im on the bottom of everything! I SUCK!

Please, I dunno what to do with myself anymore!

I have noooooooooooooo more plans, they just get crushed after 2 days anymore, cause Im not strong enough! WHY cant I be strong??? WHAT am I afraid of??? WHAT!!!??

okay, new starts, ah I hate new starts, but I really need one, and this time there will be no rules except to LIVE! please, I need this so bad, nobody know how I feel. I have an addiction of being depressed! I need to get out of it and this xanga is going to help me starting this minute!

GOAL for tomorrow;

excercise! that always makes my spirit go higher!

6AM!

FUCKKKK!

liet me start living, please!

aaahhh!

Currently Listening Frengers By Mew see related

6-12-2006 day 1

164 pounds, 5´10...

Hm... My first day on my new life i weigh in at 3 pounds more than I had yesterday... Feels very strange... But I am still determined. Since I know I am only 6 lbs away from where my highest peak ever have been I am worrying a little, since I will be going back to my country to see all my family and friends for the first time in 7 months, and when they last saw me I was around 145 lbs.

But no worries, I made a good job today I think;

Breakfast: 1 dl freshsqueezed juice from 1 orange, 30cals

Lunch: 1 orange, 50cals

Dinner: Carrotsoup with mushrooms (1veggiebrothcube(5), 250g carrots(90), mushrooms(20), salt, pepper & cayenne), 115cals

Snack; 70g peanuts (yeeees, I know, its my weakness), 400 cals

(Coffee, Sparklingwater with lemon, water) 2

TOTAL: 597 cals

I am pretty happy with myself, since I havent been this low in such a long while, and hopefully the scales will stand a little lower tomorrow!

I have been so unhappy these last couple of weeks and I just wanna do stuff to make me happy, think happy thoughts and stand up straight for myself! The nastiest I have ever felt here in Spain was yesterday when I had half a loaf of bread and then had a pizza on top of that. I guess thats where the weight comes from, since I weighed in before my pizza yesterday!

My problem is the peanuts! Damn! I have to stop! Now!

Im gonna post some goals and rules for myself a little later, come back and see what you think about them!

PS: I saw a guy on youtube yesterday who fasted for 47 days and he lost like 4-5 stones (whatever that now is) but OMG it was INCREDIBLE! I wanna do that too!

I WILL SUCCEED!

Love, Lia